Because Their Bows Went Plink

Thag shivered as the wind whipped through his fur. He was waiting, hidden behind the trees, for any movement across the clearing, where he was fairly certain there were a few men from Them, the neighboring tribe more often hostile than not, in a similar situation. He held his bow at the ready, white-knuckled and jumpy. The sound of smacking lips from behind made him start. A loud belch spun him around, ready for a fight.

“Phil! I almost shot you!”

“Sorry,” said Phil. “I brought all of this jerky and… we’ve been out here a really long time.” Thag started to interrupt but Phil blurted, “I got hungry! Okay?! I couldn’t help it!”

Thag massaged his temples and sighed, exasperated. He counted to garlok before speaking. He chose his words carefully and spoke slowly when he finally did. “Phil, we’re waiting for them to make one wrong move. As soon as they do, we will attack. If you’re too busy stuffing your face when the time comes, we will leave you.”

Thag disliked throwing rank around, preferring to lead by example. Unfortunately, Phil and his ilk came along from time to time.

“Yes, sir,” huffed Phil. Thag couldn’t tell if Phil was hunched over in shame or not. Poor posture was epidemic among Us, their tribe. Phil mumbled under his breath. Thag resettled himself and pretended not to notice, though he caught a few choice phrases like “that gonga’an son of a don-don”.

Then he saw it. It was brief and isolated but he knew he’d seen a rustling in the leaves across the clearing. Without hesitation, Thag yelled with all his might, “Aaaaaaahhh-gwwwaaaaa!!!!!!”

The noble Us warriors let fly one mighty volley of arrows after another. Once out of ammunition, each man took up his spear and eagerly ran towards the enemy. An earth shaking burp, fading away into the woods behind them, reassured Thag that Phil was not among the advancing ranks.

The men leapt from the shrubbery, hearts filled with the fire of battle. But before any one of them could take another step, they fell with muted screams like dominoes, backs filled with the enemy arrows of battle.

The Cro-Mag people, a.k.a. Them, feasted mightily that night. Lord Crow Mac himself led the tribe in their night of great barbeque and even better storytelling. The chief’s son, Raven Mag, told the tale of the day’s unplanned victory with great relish and many extended pauses for laughter.

“And so we were creeping up behind this deer when we see one of them waddling off to the west. He’s belching and cradling his ‘weapons’, if you can call them that, as if they were children. I had to punch Jeff because he was busting a gut by the third belch. All of a sudden, we hear this plink plink plink plink and we look over the ridge and see a whole gaggle of them hunched together.”

“These were a lot less gassy though,” Jeff interjected.

A few children scattered through the crowd laughed before Raven continued.

“So anyway, I mean… what were we supposed to do? We let the deer go and we managed to take them all out in one round!”

Thunderous applause rang through the cave until what sounded like a sabertooth cat’s roar silenced the crowd. “Yum,’ pronounced Lord Crow Mac as a smile spread across his stony face. The cave exploded in laughter.

Night Time Birds

Nighttime birds are quiet in their trees

For the bugs they are a-humming.
They’ve forgotten the words to their droning tune
Yet still they keep a-buzzing.

Night time birds are purple, black, and blue
Depending on the sky around them.
They settle high up in the trees
So the cats of the night can’t ground them.

The wise old owl, a sentry, stands
Ever asking who approaches.
The nighthawk flies low and patrols the ground
Though no one knows his motives.

Midnight bells toll across the city;
The daytime birds are sleeping.
The nighttime birds keep to themselves
For their loneliness is creeping.

The darkness a thin blanket forms
A shallow comfort, empty.
Clanging echoes soon cut through
The knife’s tracks are wide and many.

Silence shivers down to the quick.
The root bursts forth from its foundation.
Total freedom or listlessness
Reduced to interpretation.

The breeze; she bustles here and there
Unafraid to throw an elbow.
Unsure footing on loose-knit ground
Taunted by the sleeping sparrow.

There’s sorrow in the nighttime air
For all who are awake.
Slumped shoulders frame a heavy heart
Then the spirit begins to break.
The cracks are small when sleep first flies
Beneath the sparrow’s wing
Yet they grow as I lie awake
Remembering everything.

I cry out as the night envelopes me
A suffocated scream
Then I collapse as I recall
Darkness is only silence seen.

The nighttime birds... they know the same
They’ve heard it behind the snoring
So they keep their eyes low; ever-searching
For the first glow of the morning.

When it comes, their job is done
To sleep they can surrender.
The reins return to the mighty sun,
The daytime’s proud defender.

He punches through the stillness.
The daytime birds start chirping.
Morning bells play harmony
For the brand new day that’s lurking.

But morning is just a distant dream
Still hours in the making
The nighttime birds still hold their posts
And you’re still far from waking.

The stars that shine so far away
Are hidden far behind the clouds
Even the bravest shrink as they poke through
Shackled to their self-doubt.

The nighttime birds are quiet in their trees
And the bugs are still a-humming.
There are no words to their droning tune
Yet still they keep a-buzzing.

Fish Bowl

"Do you ever get the feeling that your in a fish bowl where the water is slowly evaporating? You swim around all day and night in your half gallon universe, always searching for something new on the plastic pirate ship, which forms the centerpiece of your existence. You swim, sink, and float all the while wishing you weren't trapped in your own filth and hoping the water will eventually stop disappearing. You pray that one of the people outside, whom you see waltzing by day by day, drink in hand, will take a brief moment to help a brother out. Wouldn't it be nice if just once someone could spare a few ounces of water?

But they don't. They don't mean to be rude, but there simply isn't time. Or they would love to help you out. Really, they would, but they've been so thirsty for so long and you've got water anyway. It's not like you don't have any. Which would be the resulting predicament for them if they helped you out, as they quickly point out. Although their casa maybe be your casa in theory, their beverage is another matter. Besides, would you really want to swim around in water contaminated by people cooties. The human mouth is a disgusting place. I know I could never be a dentist.

So you just swim back into your sunken pirate ship to search for treasure once more. Boredom can be lethal and there is nothing else in your half-gallon universe to dilute other than yourself, your byproducts, and this plastic ship with a gaping breach in the hull. Treasure? I don’t think so.

Some people claim they enjoy their own company. These are the same people who would love to help you out but would hate for you to have to live in squalor they had anything to do with. If there were any convenient way for them to help you without detriment to your well being, it would happen in a heartbeat. But they’re looking out for you. You must remember that. It is with your best interests in mind and deep in their hearts that their inaction continues. So many reasons to maintain the status quo. These same people will continue to elaborately construct their own mythology day to day and constantly adapt it to the current situation.

No one truly enjoys being alone for extended periods of time. From an evolutionary perspective, the need for companionship ensures the continuation of the species. From a creationist standpoint, it is an inborn need to connect with other creatures in hopes of catching a glimpse of the Creator. The point is this: loneliness is an inherent part of our make up that discourages prolonged solitude.

But some of us, hereafter referred to as 'fish', don't have a choice. We love the idea of other people. However, when confronted with the reality of other active, sentient beings in close proximity, a slight mental itch develops. The itch grows more intense the longer the evening drags on. Through out dinner, it gnaws away at the fish, screaming in his ear that THIS ISN'T RIGHT!!! The following explanation of the problem's exact nature is always muffled, leaving the fish frustrated, nervous, and with a ringing in his ear.

Eventually, the fish will realize what it is that won't allow him, just this once to enjoy this. Were it only a simple psychological need, such as the familiar and comfortable confined space of his bowl, something might be done. But this is a primal command, screamed from a part of the brain his ancestors had long since forgotten. He can't process the salt of the earth and sea any longer! He must leave the ocean and get back to his fresh water tank."

The audience was silent. The past five minutes had passed in silence. No laughter. No heckling. No nothing. He put the microphone back on the stand and walked straight off the stage, back to and through the door. As he walked, he heard the MC mumbling over the public address system, which meant absolutely nothing to him other than the fact that "this thing" had indeed "been on". Lost in a haze, he drove home in the night in silence, broken only by a sigh of relief to be back at his fish bowl.

Just A Girl I Used To Know

He had loved her. Or at least that’s what he told himself in the dark, waiting for sleep to pounce. Or when the neon lights bathed him in their maternal glow. Or when he gazed across a saturated subway car at a young couple, lost in each other’s presence and completely oblivious to his. But the passing lights always drew his attention like a moth’s, until his focus resettled on the solitary figure staring at him in the window. He had loved her until she had said it one day, in a voice like shattering glass. She was gone.
But that was a long time ago. They had come and gone since with no significant upset, merely a hobby and barely worth mentioning. He carried on with life, more like the victim of a bad haircut than an amputee. He had lost something, no doubt. But until today, he had never really thought about it. It had nothing to do with her, though in passing he might have convinced himself otherwise. A creative fire, once devastatingly beautiful and fueled by an endless cycle of observation and fusion, had finally reached a point just past the horizon. It was dying.
Like the innocent victim of lethal disease, the knowledge of the existence of an end contributed in hastening it onward. Wasted canvases betrayed the stillborn ideas, suffocating in their lack of momentum. He was tired.

But this was his swan song. A masterpiece. His magnum opus. Her long, brown hair fell past her shoulders and a soft smile cast its shadow across the face of the sun. He painted her not as she was, nor as she had been. He painted her as he remembered her from a lifetime ago. And although that same lifetime may have distorted his memory, it made no difference to him. Here was a reality more tangible than anything he’d ever known. There she stood at the top of the hill, basking in the halo Helios himself placed upon her head. She looked down with mercy and compassion at the mortal below. He returned her gaze. Filled with sorrow for past sins, he returned to the religion of that summer and readily reassumed his role as zealot. This graven image, crafted by his own hand, made him an idolater once more. With every brushstroke, he disappeared more and more into his creation and withdrew further from the cold academics’ reality. He felt the grass between his toes. The sunlight danced on his skin and a gentle breeze tossed their hair. He could see the lake in the distance.
The breeze became a howling gale. Helios fled as the thunderheads rolled in. Roaring across the lake, lightning impaled the air and he watched helplessly as she ran down the hill for shelter. Desperate as he was, he lost her the light that flashed right in front of him.
“Who is that?” she asked, cracking the sky and closing the door behind her. The world around him shattered and fell away to reveal the studio. She sat the brown grocery sack on the counter and walked over to admire his latest work.
“Oh, no one…” he said nonchalantly with total disregard for his racing heartbeat. “Just a girl I used to know.”

He Needed Peace

The river was a place of peace and always had been. The setting sun seemed to float downstream, disappearing beyond the horizon. A gentle breeze wandered aimlessly along the bank, hopscotching over and around every irregularity in the landscape. Like the nocturnal old drunks that seemed omnipresent downtown, it had nowhere to be; only the past to run from.

He was running. His eyes strained for a glimpse on the goal he feared he’d never reach. He could hear it gurgling faintly through the trees. He needed peace.

Panting like a dog roasting the in July sun, he refused to look back. He didn’t know who or what he was afraid might be chasing him but he knew that looking back might just force him to find out. Acknowledging whatever’s or whoever’s existence would give it more power than he had the power to stand against at the moment. He was exhausted.

The day had been long and the night before even longer. His memory got fuzzier from there but he figured that was kind of the point. It seemed that time lost its meaning. In the moments when his mortality forced him to pause for breath, rest, and contemplation, colors seemed to shift before his eyes and he couldn’t help but feel that he was dreaming.

That terrified him like nothing else. He’d long dreamt of escape and many a night had passed in silent, inner turmoil. From the first snore that ripped though the darkness and his eardrums until the first light of the new day poked through his eyelids, he’d wrestle with the angel and the devil. Waking only promised the agony of the day before.

When he could finally stand it no longer, the spirit descended on him. He rose and his legs carried him outward and onward of their own accord. They moved him across the ground faster than he’d ever imagined possible. He could only imagine they grasped the severity of the consequences should his escape fail.

The nighttime buzzed with life as he had never known. He saw tiny, glowing eyes in the periphery that disappeared before he could turn his head without fail. Every snapped twig or rustled leaf made him jump. His heart would skip, forcing him to pause. The rest he found in these moments was never comforting. He knew he needed it but he hated it just the same.

In the stillness, his loneliness would begin speaking to him. The rustling leaves grew louder and busier, and, if he strained his ears enough, he swore he heard dogs barking excitedly. They were always distant, though they were slowly creeping closer. Powerful as his imagination was, he was almost sure that’s all they were. It was the tiny part of him that wasn’t so sure that drove him steadily onward.

He was finally to the river. He burst forth from the woods and it lazily wound around the bend until it disappeared again beneath the sun-scorched horizon. The sparse clouds swirled across the purple sky as if written by God Himself. For the first time, he understood how the ancients came to worship the light, even as it dropped of the face of the earth; possibly to never return again. For him, the journey to and fro oblivion was no less mysterious or divine in that moment.

He’d brought as little as possible with him but, even then, it was too much. Certain things were following him; the very things he’d sought to leave behind. They were the same things he was running from.

He paused for just a second to survey the scene. The drunken breeze rustled his hair reassuringly and his lungs overfilled with air. He drank in the sunset.

The orange ball seemed within his grasp. The space between was intoxicating. He felt himself floating. He was airborne. Higher, higher, higher he rose. Just short, he fell. His outstretched arm strained to be long enough. The sun seemed to mock him with its unwavering stare as he fell away. Once again, he felt all too mortal.

The waters threw their heads back, rolled back and forth by raucous laughter. He went limp as the first drops splashed around his legs. Gasping for air, the water swallowed him whole.

The Poet and His Plagiarist (Part 1)

The view from his corner of the small café’s patch of sidewalk was blocked by the floppy yellow umbrella that sagged above and around the table like an overprotective mother. For the first time in a long time, it was a sunny day. Somehow the shadows felt more natural to him. Besides, the umbrella was bright enough on its own. His head was beginning to ache. He was waiting and beginning to get anxious.

His thick sunglasses hid the bags under his eyes. He wore an insincere half-smile to draw attention away from his pale, unshaven face and his disheveled clothing. He didn’t smoke but a burning cigarette hung between the index and middle fingers on his right hand regardless. It was all a front. He wore it for the people because it’s what they wanted.

He’d always wanted to be a wordsmith of some kind. He’d read unceasingly. He began with the works under the “Classics” banner and worked his way outward. He moved from prose to poetry and back again, spending some time reading about the men and women who still drew breath in the white spaces between the words. He’d even been inspired to give writing a shot himself.

He soon realized the romanticized image of a writer was silly. They’d often been painted as something more than they had ever been or would ever be. They were the mirrors of their world but not the world at large. In his experience, writing meant spending a lot of time alone, trying to find the dividing line between loneliness and solitude.

He’d written for a long time before he actually produced anything worth mentioning. Angsty journals had filled his bookshelves until he’d burned them all at friend’s bonfire one night. That bonfire was historic for many reasons. He met her for the first time that night.

He rode back to his parents’ house right on the edge of the next morning, feeling oddly. He’d collapsed on he bed without bothering to pull back the sheets. As the birds of the early morning began to tweet and chirp, he felt the weight of the night before on his eyelids and in his heart.

Before he could entirely surrender to the weariness in his bones, something moved within his chest. A light in his soul roared to life as if switch had been flipped. His hand scrambled around in the darkness until it found his lone remaining notepad and, after a few moments of groping blindly in the night, a pen. Even now, he couldn’t recall what happened afterward until he awoke the next afternoon. The notepad on the floor beside his bed lacked a page or two of being full.

He bumped into her at school Monday morning. Their respective armloads of books went flying. After a moment of awkward silence and the meeting of the eyes usually saved for a Mexican standoff, they both burst into maniacal laughter as they gathered their spilled luggage. The rest of their time together went like something out of a book he had read in his youth or one of the movies made from the book.

They’d been companions more or less since their hallway collision. He’d later write that, as harmless as it seemed, that accident ended two lives. Yet far from a tragedy, they had fused.

She’d read his work, not knowing that many of those early poems were about her in one way or another. They were good. He’d felt it when he read the first batch the day after the bonfire, but she was emphatic. When they’d finally been accepted for publication and he’d expressed his disbelief, she’d shot him a look that, while only expressing her undying confidence in him, reminded him how dumb he could be sometimes. He’d gotten the same beam of sunshine when the first check arrived in the mail.

She wrote too. He was far more prolific but every word she committed to paper was saturated to the point of dripping with the same beauty, profound meaning, and grace of her every movement. She was better than he could ever hope to be and loved her all the more for it.

They decide that some time apart would do them both good after such a long time together in high school. Their first semester at the local university quickly turned into a failed experiment in “space”. Over winter break, his first collection and her first novel were picked up for publication. When they married in the late spring, the only surprised people were those who had assumed it had already happened.

They both wrote and became more successful than they’d had any right to dream of. They rose to name recognition and were more than happy to keep their physical anonymity in their tiny hometown. In the rare quiet times, they spoke some about their plans for the future and the possibility of children (which they both wanted eventually). They knew they were young and they were in no hurry to rush into anything. They had their whole lives ahead of them to worry about those kinds of things. But then, shortly after the release of her fourth novel and right before the relase of his sixth collection, she found out she was pregnant. It was like the hallway collision all over again.

They began making plans and talking about names and trying to decide who would give up their office for the nursery. He felt that the light that had turned on after the bon fire so long ago was burning twice as bright. Looking at her and sensing the glowing aura wrapped around her body, he knew that she felt exactly the same.

One night they went to a friend’s house for a party celebrating his winning of one award or another. The friend was a man of means and exquisite tastes. Dinner was marvelous and the conversations in the soft candlelight took on a magical quality as the hour grew later.

As they drove home on the edge of the next morning, she fell asleep. With her breathing softly beside him as they twisted and turned on the backcountry roads, his mind began to wander. He thought back to another night, long ago, when he’d driven the same path at the same time, all the while thinking of the same girl. He smiled to himself. He thought of all the good times since and the wide-open possibilities for the future. He thought about how fortunate he was to have his muse as a constant, in-the-flesh companion and he worried about what kind of father he was going to be. Would he be too distant? Too present? Too strict or too lax? He rounded a sharp turn with his hands firmly gripping the steering wheel. He didn’t see the headlights slide drunkenly onto his side of the road until it was too late.

Burning House: a poem

An insurance salesman, a philosopher, an economist, and a pyromaniac (a hobby; he’s currently bouncing back and forth between a few contractors for work) walk into a bar. They’ve all had a long day and the silence is dense enough to be comfortable. It hangs around and between them, cloudlike, until the pyromaniac turns to the rest of the group and asks, "How much is a house worth when it's burning to the ground?"

A ripple shoots through the airs, shattering the tired stillness of the room. Each of the men stirs as the shards of echoing sound hit him. Tiny enough to sting just a little at impact, it shakes each man awake. “What?” asks the insurance salesman as the clouds part from in front of his eyes.

The pyromaniac repeats his question and the men look at him, puzzled. The insurance salesman, a simple man who enjoys the sound of his own voice, laughs and says, “Well… I guess it depends on the policy the homeowner has.”

The pyromaniac sits quietly, staring off into space. The economist, highly educated with an ego just as inflated as his grades had been, decides to fill the silence and says, “In this economy, it’s probably not worth anything while it’s still standing.” He looked at the insurance salesman and smiled. “If I were you, I’d definitely be investigating the homeowners.”

The insurance salesman laughs again and says, “That’s kind of our standard operating procedure. Our clientele is usually pretty oblivious but every once in a while someone can be convinced they may have forgotten to turn the stove off.”

“What about people in lower income neighborhoods? In my experience, they usually remember things like that,” said the economist.

The insurance salesman snorts and, after a moment, wipes the tears from his eyes as he gasps for breath. “Even if they could afford it, they know their crap isn’t worth insuring!”

The economist can’t help but smirk. The philosopher, a man of somber disposition, ignores the larger implications behind the joke and asks, “Is there not value in any kind of house? The shelter it provides from the elements must be worth something or houses wouldn’t be worth anything regardless of their status as charred or not. Think of the homeless. Don’t they desire a home of any sort to shelter them form the elements? If you’re going to say more modest homes aren’t worth anything, then you have to agree that larger homes, which only differ in giving the inhabitants more space to themselves, are worthless as well. If space is the primary source of value, then the homeless would be the happiest.”

The pyromaniac’s empty glass clinks as he sets it down on the laminated bar. “That’s an interesting point. I was just going to say that it was only valuable as it was burning. You can’t buy entertainment like that.”

With that he waves to his friends, spins around on his stool, and walks outside. Through the door, his friends watch as he disappears into the night and shiver at the blast of cold wind that rushed in behind him. Moments later, the fire alarm begins screeching and the panicked bar patrons run out to find their home away from home lighting up the night sky like a mighty torch.

The World Is On Fire

The world is on fire. The flames are invisible but only burn all the hotter for it. Since the beginning, we’ve crawled out of the ooze from which we’re born, sopping wet and mercifully coated with a protective layer of the liquid still clinging to us. The coats vary in thickness, some more uneven than others. The flames lick at us but all they taste is the ooze for a while. The ooze doesn’t last. With each fiery kiss, some of it evaporates away, becoming a cloud that will one day rain over the pool of our origin and give a new life its chance.

Eventually the flames burn through. It’s a subtle change because the layers melt away one at a time and it gets hotter inside each time. Yet when it happens, we know without knowing that it is over. Our time is not immediately over but we feel the burn, numbing our senses, and nothing can be the way it was before. Our chances to live, love, learn, and explore have slipped away through our fingers like the waters of a lazy creek. The End comes when it will, as a thief in the night. We know only that it is impending by the bitter taste of our every breath. Smiles fade quicker and don’t mean as much as they did before. One day we all look past the rain and the life it brings and see only the mud upon which it all rests. Hollow laughter echoes through the empty hallways of our dwelling places and we dissolve with the sound. The blurry, dull edge to the world becomes little more than dead wait, preparing the burdened for their rest.

The thickness of each coat is apportioned by luck alone to each individual. A heavy, even coat is granted to some, gifting them with long life and good health. Some are given a heavy coat, thinner in some places than in others. This results in a long life, though the exposed areas bring problems that will eat away at the physical body long before its time to go. There are an unfortunate few given a sparse coat if any at all. These are the poets, prophets, and mad men of the world. From the first breath, they feel the fire eating away at them. They know that The End is just as much a part of our life as the first breath that announced The Beginning. These are the stirrer of souls that demand that we acknowledge that our powers are limited to between these points. The world is burning and so are we. The fire is unquenchable! What will you do before you burn away to ash?

The Roommate: A Horror Story

Chester kicked the lowest step, hoping to knock the snow from his shoes. He hated winter. His teeth chattered and his hand shook as he tried to guide his key to the lock. The warmth on the other side of the door seemed to be taunting him.

He heard the sharp click and his clumsy, gloved hands scrambled for the doorknob. He leapt inside and slammed the door behind him in Jack Frost’s hideous face. The wind howled as it blew across the covered porch. He flipped the deadbolt and collapsed on the couch. He was cold, hungry, and exhausted.

It had been an extremely long day. His first class had started at 7 o’clock sharp that morning. Within ten minutes, he’d watched helplessly as the snow began to fall steadily, filling in the space between the surviving mounds from the last storm.

He trudged from one building to the next with his head held down against the tiny white flakes that stung his face. Little white specks covered the front of his coat before melting away.

After lunch, the hours at his on-campus job seemed to drag on for years. There was never enough movement to consider himself busy, yet naps were always interrupted as soon as the thought entered his mind. Like his father, his dark brown hair began showing silvery interruptions at an early age. Unlike his father, his had started just before his twelfth birthday and spread like shattered glass. Chester didn’t look in the mirror much because it only reminded him that he wore it all just as heavily on his face. The work study job didn’t help.

He was finally home. Or as close to home as he had anymore. Moving from one parent’s house to the next and then back to school again, he felt like a transient. The constant motion gave the world a blurry look and kept him from establishing any permanent type of anchor. It was unsettling in the best of times and nauseating in the worst.

He lay in a puddle on the couch for a long time. Hunger began creeping in from the periphery of his vision until it finally moved him to swing himself up onto his feet and mosey into the kitchen. He opened the refrigerator and crouched to see what delicacies were waiting for him. He was horrified to find a few pieces of cheese and some pasta from the week before the only things that greeted his eyes.

For the past two weeks, Chester had been readjusting. His roommate from the previous three semesters decided it was time to take a break from school and “find himself”. Chester was skeptical of any enlightenment found while waiting tables at a sports bar but he certainly wasn’t going to say anything. His new roommate was from way up north. Even after a fortnight, they were still trying to hash out a way through the language barrier.

Chester’s new roommate was a classical pianist. In his room, he’d play beautifully for hours, filling the whole apartment with lush sound from his keyboard. He always seemed to be on his way to meet up with friends to “compose some music”. Chester would joke with his friends that he was afraid he’d come home some day to find his apartment littered with musicians, sheet music and powdered wigs.

Chester loved music and had little problem with the incessant practicing. More often than not, he enjoyed it. What Chester did have a problem with was his new roomie’s habit of staying up through the night, periodically breaking the cover of his room to eat whatever he could find in the apartment. Chester had been waking up to find more and more of his food disappearing. Just yesterday Chester had politely given a verbal cease-and-desist request. Clearly, the apologies and assurances that it wouldn’t happen again hadn’t meant anything. They’d established early on a system of alternating who bought the things they both used (paper plates, toilet paper, etc.). He’d hoped that any of the other’s foods one might happen to eat would logically fall into this category. No dice. The grocery list on the side of the refrigerator was long and arrogant.

His roommate was gone. Chester dug through cabinet after cabinet until he finally found a package of two Pop Tarts. He was hungry enough that he didn’t care. After “dinner”, he began to look around the common areas of the apartment, taking stock of the damages. He was about to use the bathroom when he noticed they were out toilet paper and running extremely low on liquid hand soap.

Chester, angrier than he had words to describe, threw his arctic gear, still wet, back on and grabbed his keys. He slammed the door behind him and began planning exactly what he would say when the time came. This was too far. His teeth were chattering again by the time he heard the deadbolt click again.

His mind was racing as he walked towards a friend’s apartment down the block. It had been one of those days for the past week straight.

Chester stepped up to the door and knocked three times in rapid succession. Before his knuckles rapped against the door the third time, it hit him like a freight train on a tight schedule. All of his angst intensified and immediately spun in a new direction. It was his turn to go shopping.

Los Gatos de la Noche Preview

Los gatos de la noche cantan a la luna.

Se dicen que ella escucha y sonríe.

He heard the rain fall around him but he didn’t feel it. He couldn’t feel anything but the cold. It was creeping in from his extremities. He knew it wouldn’t be much longer. It couldn’t be much longer. There was an odd comfort in this.

He didn’t notice the café he had collapsed in front of but it only seemed fair. None of the people inside had noticed him either.

A young couple sat by the window, warmed by the heat radiating from the cups on the table between them. The young man was babbling on about any and every subject that came to mind for no other reason than to draw out their time together. He traced the lines of her face with his eyes before falling into hers just long enough to get his fix without the impression of staring. She didn’t protest. He’d heard an old proverb once upon a time that said the eyes were the window to the soul and he knew in that moment that it must be true. She had the most beautiful eyes he’d ever seen in his life. The orange pseudo-fireplace across the room cast an amber glow that accented the soft, acoustic background music perfectly.

The world outside had taken on a nasty gray film that weighed everything down and made everything blurry. As he lay there in the gutter, Horatio couldn’t help but think of her. The streetlight overhead provided no warmth. His eyes ached in their sockets. Horatio wondered if he was sinking or if the puddle was expanding. Eventually it ceased to matter either way. He closed his eyes.

Stars Like Eyes and Dreams in Blue

Good morning!

My eyes flutter open of their own free will. The last thing I recall is blinking. Each time, my eyes stay closed a little longer bringing me a little closer to something I've forgotten; we've all forgotten.

Here I am. It's early. The grass seems metallic as the rising sunlight hits the morning dew. I'm standing alone in the silence. The beauty of the sunrise overwhelms me. Rays of light from the East pierce the clear blue sky like a volley of arrows. Yet there is peace.

Birds chirp off and on then off again. They're far away but they sound as sweet as the honeysuckle.

I stand at a crossroads. Someone is walking steadily towards me. By the grace of God, the stranger walks with the grace of only a woman. I realize that this is one of His greatest gifts to man; that she is so unlike him.

Blue is my favorite color. I see it everywhere and wear it around my soul. I can’t help myself.

The stranger approaches with patience before each step. I look to the sky again. Tears of joy streak my face though they are not my own.

I look down again and see the stranger once more. The tall, tall trees reach towards the sky and then, realizing their mistake, for each other, forming a grand corridor. The stranger saunters ever onward through the archway.

She walks onward; always onward. The trees pull apart for her, revealing the night sky. There are no stars but a brilliant light like I’ve never seen is just out of view.

The stranger pauses for a moment just in front of me. I meet her eyes and I fall in, losing myself for a long, long time. I am warm for the first time in a long time.

They radiate the deepest blue I’ve ever known. I feel it straight through to my core. I see everything from the top of the highest mountain and from the depths of the deepest ocean. I let myself go entirely limp. I float. Upstream or downstream I don’t know or care. I feel the sweetest relief and I relish it.

But then something or someone has grabbed me by the ankles. He or she or it is pulling me away. I panic. I try to scream but the only sound is the birds still chirping in the distance. I reach out desperately for a handhold but there is nothing.

I’m standing between the trees again. The stranger smiles at me for a moment before walking on past me. The trees come together again in her wake.

She’s not a stranger. I think about her often and wonder if she does the same. The comfort in those eyes is the same comfort in that voice; in her mere presence.

I’ve made a mistake. I try to turn around and call after her but the Earth has swallowed up my feet and I have no voice.

There’s so much I want to tell her! I see little things everyday that only make me think of you and wish you were here. I’ve met this girl who wanted to be friends but I can’t ever look at her without thinking of you.

She’s still smiling as she walks away, as if she can hear me. She’s always smiling.

Good morning!

My eyes flutter open of their own free will. I reach for the phone and the number dials itself. I sit up as I hear the rounded electronic trill in my ear. Once. Twice. Three times.

I notice the clock on the wall. It’s late enough to be early. It’s even earlier where she is.

“Hey! You’ve reached…”

Click

There’s always tomorrow.

A Suh-then Gennelmen

The mighty jaw crunched closed like Jason's Wandering Rocks. Hungry lips kissed themselves, parting with the moist pop of a suction cup coming off a frosty window.

"Bill, will you shut yo' dadgum mouth when you chew?!" he shouted down the length of the elegant table. "Makin' me sick! I sway-uh!"

Bill mumbled something through his mouthful of beans that Charles assumed was an apology.

Charles chuckled to himself, twirling the cold metal thoughtfully in his hands. In the crazy, ever-changing world he lived in, Charles knew that he could always be sure that Bill would never get above his raising. If it were any possible to get lower, well, then there might be cause for concern. But good ole Bill, raised by wolves or himself or maybe a far off king (depending on how creative Bill was feeling), was as steady and intelligent as a rock. His undying loyalty to Charles made him a perfect member of the household. Though it was an inadvertent result of Charles’s having once lapsed and shown a fleeting kindness to another soul, he’d never once regretted. Bill’s lacking table manners were insignificant next to the security that came with having such a behemoth around. Plus, though he would never admit it, being the gentleman that he was, Bill usually doubled as the evening’s entertainment.

As if on cue, a slight rumble emitted from the other end of the table. Bill lowered his hand from his mouth and smiled up at him like a small child. His face looked like a distorted reproduction of his plate five minutes ago. Charles couldn’t help but smile back like he imagined proud father might. Billy was learning.

Charles’s father, known throughout the region simply as Senior (even before his one and only son came along), had been a cold man. Charles had never known his mother. Growing up, he’d always heard stories about the delightful man his father had been before the cruel exchange and how immediate the change had been after.

Charles didn’t believe most of what he’d heard. The man he knew had kept his son and everyone else at arm’s length. Charles, who believed that his father somehow blamed him for his mother’s death and sometimes even joined him in this belief, had spent most of his youth at a boarding school far from home, learning all the skills and manners that had gotten him to where he was. He never had time to write to his father, who reciprocated the sentiment. Theirs was a strained relationship.

When a massive heart attack took his father late one afternoon, no one noticed until it was time for dinner almost 6 hours later. He’d been discovered in his study, his personal sanctuary where he was known to disappear for hours at a time. When he was over twenty minutes late for dinner, which he never missed for any reason, the blanket “Do Not Disturb” policy was broken. He’d been slumped over his desk with the last remains of Charles’s inheritance spilled out on the floor.

It’s been a very long time, thought Charles. Upon receiving news of his father’s death, Charles hadn’t even thought of shedding a tear. He immediately left school and came home to sell off his father’s estate and all of the baggage attached to it. He would use the money to finance his new life and a new business venture.

He’d discovered Bill rooting around in the woods at the edge of the vast property. After inviting him in for a warm meal, Charles had found a better business partner than he could possibly have hoped for. Bill’s superhuman size and strength always made negotiations much smoother.

There were voices at the front door. “Aw-right, Bill, ” he announced. “It’s showtime.”

They took their positions as the tumblers in the lock squeaked and popped. They should have tried the backdoor, thought Charles, laughing to himself. It’s open.

The door opened and the two unfamiliar faces were greeted by two unfamiliar faces, waiting for them eagerly in the foyer. The woman started to scream but Charles brought his gun out from his pocket and raised a finger to his lips. Her husband stood in front of her with his jaw hanging open.

Charles’s lines flowed naturally, as if he were saying them for the first time. “Good evening. If ya’ll could please have a seat and speak only when spoken to, then I think we can get this unfortunate ugliness over with rather quickly. Thank you for dinner, by the way. Bill, thank the nice folks.”

Bill stepped from the shadows and nodded with a grunt, pounding his monstrous left palm with the club in his right.

Beneath Your Window

The sweetest pillow my head hath known

Was little more than a humble stone

If only because twas lodged beneath your window

Though sleep resisted and my head did smart

It did wonders for my heart

If only because twas lodged beneath your window

I dreamt of you, my love, for quite some time

Safe, warm, and happy in my mind

Though a coat of frost grew across your window

Cold it was though I slept fine

Until I awoke around midnight

To find blue lights flashing bright upon your window

I swore there had been some mistake

But I felt my heart begin to break

I saw you crying through your upstairs window

You see, the last time that we met in court

I thought it was a joke of sorts

A lovers' game; to keep me from your window

You said you did not know my name

I said loved you just the same

Forever I would wait beneath your window

Yet here I sit in my tiny cell

Wondering if it's just as well

That metal bars encase my only window

Though my time in here may take it's toll

Before you know I'll be up for parole

And with any luck, they'll tell me that I can go

So please, my darling, save the date

I'll see you soon; in six to eight

Moonlit, we'll meet again beneath your window.

With love,

Larry

The Excluded (a.k.a. The Cyber Dead)

Stephen is disconnected. His high-end laptop is as dead as the proverbial doornail. His artificially intelligent phone is nothing more than an expensive paperweight. It has only been a few weeks but already he's become use to the isolation. He walks down the street as seldom as possible these days, but when he does, he takes the four small walls of his apartment and the cramped space between them with him.

On paper, Stephen is still alive and well. But paper is irrelevant. Social networking pages, portable telephone numbers, television. These are the things that connect a man to the world today. Without them, he floats through his days alone and free. Total freedom. Who knew?

Stephen has a family. Or he did. He hasn't spoken with them (or anyone else, for that matter) in the past few weeks. They might be worried. He hopes they are. But he has disappeared before. Never for this long. But it's happened.

The last time had been for three days. There had been no particular reason for it. Stephen finds that very few actions are motivated by reason today. Instant gratification tastes oh so sweet. And why not? If the book of Genesis is to be believed, it was the want for more than instant gratification, the need for reason, that got us into this whole human mess in the first place.

And what a mess it is! Unless I’ve been misinformed (which we must take a moment to realize is certainly very possible; we’re all so gullible in the long run), we (and I mean humanity as a whole) couldn’t make it two generations into this whole thing without letting our homicidal tendencies get the best of us. Oh to be the logical creatures that we pretend!

Stephen thinks too much. He recognizes and acknowledges all of the above with minimal reluctance. He just can’t help himself. (Thank God Stephen’s not homicidal!) The thinking in and of itself isn’t the problem.

People wouldn't mind, but Stephen has a bad habit of thinking out loud. He'll babble on and babble on and babble on in Babylon. Are you paying attention? No one ever asks him to be quiet but he can tell that they're thinking of nothing else. So he did one time.

Stephen unplugged. He turned off the lights and unplugged the phone. He shut down his laptop and locked the door behind him. He walked outside into the pouring rain with nothing but a bad idea in his head and a few dollars in his pocket.

He'd turned up a few days later physically tired and broke. Yet his heart had been so light. Stephen’s introverted inclinations disappeared for a moment. Walking to his parents’ door, he’d smiled at every person whose path he crossed. He’d even gone so far as to wave and speak to the familiar faces. Every one of them politely waved back and brushed him of as quickly as decorum would allow. The false smiles would disappear before they’d even turned completely around. Stephen had thought to himself that the rain must have washed them away.

Stephen’s heart grew heavy again. He’s been gone for these weeks trying to make a point to the people he loves. He’s not online yet still he exists. The physical interactions let you know you’re not alone in the universe. Prolonged isolation, modernity’s most prized possession, has even managed to convince a few that there is no universe. They just possess extremely active imaginations. It’s an interesting thought but something in Stephen just won’t let him buy into it. Even if he could, the discomfort of being an ineffective god would probably bring him back to the same conclusions he’s already reached.

Stephen is going home now. The wilderness that starts just south of what once was 8^th Avenue has given him the solitude he’s needed. He hopes someone has noticed his absence but that’s not really important.

As Stephen walks into the city at twilight, he sees the sun burn a brilliant red on the horizon like it never has before. He pauses for a moment. It dawns on him, ‘neath the rays of the setting sun, that he hears absolute silence. Yet for once in his life, he hears everything. The city is dark.

As Stephen gets closer and closer to the city, he realizes that something is very different. He begins to see people in the street. Bonfires burn freely in the alleys. People sit in large groups, larger than he’s ever seen, gathered round the fires like the ghosts of cavemen. Then it hits him. He hasn’t seen an operational vehicle yet. Neon advertisements seemed to have disappeared. The streetlights are out. All of the lights are out. Stephen is not alone anymore.

Look To The Stars

Aeons ago, just after the beginning, there was a man who couldn't sleep. He suffered from what was at that point the worst case of insomnia this world had ever seen. It had nothing to do with financial or social responsibilities. The world was young enough that man had not yet learned to be afraid and nightmares suffered from lack of source material. Though entirely a possibility, the historical record does not mention a woman.

Night after night he fought with his pillow, turning it this way and that. He tossed and he turned on the ground. Like all of the people, his dwelling protected him from the cool night air. Yet still sleep did not come. Days passed and each morning the flaming sky taunted his bleary eyes. The days became longer and longer until he no longer knew the difference between day and night. The nightly fire became to him the evening sun until the darkness chased them all inside.

He lay alone staring at the ceiling again and again. At times, the man would reach out his hand and feel nothing. It would fall down by his side again, empty.

One night, the man’s fatigue became something more. Within himself, he felt desperation when he reached out his hand and then a solemnity settled upon him that could only be described as final. He got up from his dwelling place and walked outside into the darkness. The embers in the circular fire pit still glowed softly around the edges; their warmth and light imprisoned in their ashen shell. The wind blew like a strike to the face.

In those days, all men still spoke with God. There were no set apart orders or charismatic leaders. In a time before distraction, God’s constant presence was felt by mankind, gifting them with a personal faith that they have sought to reclaim ever since.

The man bowed down and began to pray, saying, "O My God, why has sleep departed from your servant? My bones ache and my mind races! After seven days even You rested from your labor.”

There was no answer.

“Lord, what would you have me do?” he asked, keeping his face to the ground. “If it be your will, grant your servant understanding.”

Still there was silence.

“Please, Almighty God!” he pleaded, pounding his fists on the ground. “If nothing else, grant your servant a reprieve! I can take no more!”

The man rose to his knees, “Since I was a boy, I have learned to walk in Your ways. All of my days, I’ve done my best to walk the path of righteousness, yet I know that tonight you have something to say to me. I pray please! Say it! For I fear this might be my last night to hear it.”

Exhausted, the man began weeping. “My Lord, I give myself over to you. I have lived in the world of light and darkness for too long! I see you each day in my brothers and sisters, yet at night it seems that You depart from me. I beg that You let me hear what You speak to me. Quiet my mind! Open my eyes and ears! Let me know that you hear me!”

He rubbed his watery eyes and looked up. With the fire dead where it lay, he saw, for the very first time, the night sky unobstructed. He gasped in wonder at the countless stars above, sprinkled densely across the wide open sky. In the uninhibited darkness, their light shone even brighter.